The way he says it in Civil War really hurts my soul because he says it so familiarly. The only way he can get out of this is to fight. He doesn’t want to hurt anyone. So that makes the second one a little happier because at least now he’s not alone and this time it’s more of his own free will. He could have chosen to stay, but he chose to help Steve.
CAN BUCKY JUST HAVE LIKE 5 YEARS WHERE HE EATS PLUMS AND PLAYS WITH HIS GOATS AND JUST CHILLS IN THE WAKANDAN SUN!! GIVE THIS POOR BEAUTIFUL MAN A BREAK!